Some Feelings Never Change

"Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone - we find it with another." - Thomas Merton

I was first introduced to this quote from the episode titled "Zugzwang" on Criminal Minds. And the idea that this is our true destiny has always inspired me to continue my search. Throughout my long journey, there have been a few women that have stood out to me, and possessed qualities that I now desire in a potential spouse.

One such woman I ran into last night. To protect identities, I will not mention any real names. However, I saw this person while out grocery shopping. I had not seen her in quite a few years. However, thanks to the magic of social networks, we have kept up with each other. We had met in college, both of us taking a computer programming course. She wanted to be a video game designer. I know, beautiful and nerdy, to good to be true. Well of course, she was taken. Since I'm not the type of guy to lure woman away from their boyfriends, we became friends. She and I eventually became very close for a while before life took us our separate ways.

Anyway, back to this encounter. In the years since I have seen her last, I have developed a bit of a social anxiety. I was extremely excited to see her, but felt awkward as we stood there and she introunced me to her husband and son. It was awkward for me because through the uneasy body movements, I felt I was giving off a bad vibe. Anyway, aso we talked, I noticed how happy she was with life. Having been as close to her as I once was, I couldn't have been happier for her.

So I knew from that moment, whomever I end up with, I want the same type of friendship I had with her, one that I regret having lost as life sent us our separate ways.